Friday, June 30, 2006 6/30/2006 09:57:00 PM

the exam period is here again.. as was apparent when i failed to update my blog for wat seems to be more den a week!!! y?guess ppl... i'bve been studyin.. studyin... n did i mention studyin??? i'm seriously gettin tired of this endless studyin... when's it gonna end?!?!!? sam'll be here soon n i'll be busy with exams.. :( haven't got time to meet anyone i really wanna meet cos of exams.... :( today was screwed up.. everything was wrong.. but i ended the day with a good studying.. how ironic.. i'm starting to find pleasure and accomplishment in.. studying.. youth day on monday, wat m i gonna do? study.. n somehow i feel like i'm the only one hu seems so stressed bout it! well, there's ig, but he's perpetually studyin.. :p cant wait for the mid years to be over.. oh wait.. there's the promos! whee!! sob.. dunno y i'm being so emo today.. prob cos nothing seems to be goin my way today... flustered n f*ed up the announcements.. felt like a loser hu has lost all forms of enjoyment to the rigours of work... i'm not doin this for myself,.. i'm doing it for all the ppl hu have faith in me.. i'll do it.. even if it squeezes all the 'bridget-ness' inside of me.. i've been told i'm becoming bitchier.. i guess i am.. n i shan't relate it to stress.. as i said today.. i've learnt, since coming out of my protected IJ shell.. the world is tough.. and one has to be tough to survive..


Tuesday, June 20, 2006 6/20/2006 10:47:00 PM

Alright.. Bridget's back.. only to be gone agin tmw.. hee hee.. SC camp.. not feelin very enthusiastic.. nothin to do with the SC peeps.. jus needa study alot.. n will be missin out on long online cons again.. well.. let's c.. bet u guys r eager to find out all bout my trip!!haha.. (n bet some wanna shoot me for my guts)... well, watever!!! hee hee.. took a coach ride there.. wasn't too bad.. got stuck in a jam at first.. messagin durin that time.. sayin last words!!! rem, bridget is the queen dramatization!!! :p anyvaayss.. the trip there went wthout much incident.. perhaps with a lil homesickness... if u get wat i mean.. ;)

went straight to the hotel.. kids wanted to sleep with me.. so alright.. wat can i say, i've got that kinda effect on ppl! :p (once again, u guys wanna kill me.. :p) haha.. went for a lil shoppin at Times square... but was a lil short of time, hence went on for dibnner!!! mum's fren treated us to sharks' fin n mmm.. many many REALLY good suff!!! i'm not the prawn type, but i actually ate loads!!! n omg... the suckling pig.. n the chicken... even the RICE!!! fried rice it was, carbo n all.. man.. the dinner was simply blissful.. den went to shop some more at Times Square!!! hee hee hee... went back to the hotel after.. din get much.. a pair of sunglasses, n a wallet! yep yep!!! Back at the hotel, studied.. omg.. no life... studyin on vacation how absolutely cool!!! NOT! slept with a serious feeling of deprivation of internet.. omg.. i've become net dependent!

next morn.. alright breakfast.. the best thing, the cakes.. y? cos they provided this RICH, SMOOTH, MELT IN UR MOUTH, PIPING HOT, BITTERSWEET chocolate... mmmmm.. the feel of the chocolate gliding round the tongue... the sweet cake.. WOW!!!! hee hee.. i sound like a glutton now.. but hey, cant help it now can i? :p went off to Sunway lagoon!! omg!!! it's SOOOO fuuunn!!! took the 360 degrees ride abooouutt.... 2 times? n the 360 degree pirate ship once (the positioning of the safety bar seriously sucked.. all d gals were complaining.. :S ) n took the water slides about three times.. and the carpet waterslide thing once.. mm... walked this freakin high suspension bridge twice, took some round and round cowboy boot thing twice, a teacup ride, n flume ride, a 6 ppl river rapid ride twice.. n the ferris wheel twice... Have many pics of the suspension bridge n all.. but man, cant post dem.. shall post in friendster, look out dere! :D the thing had like, grills in the middle of it, so u can look STRAIGHT down!!!! how absopositively coolio is that!!!!! loovveedd lookin down. Mum was scared stiff!!!! hee hee.... went another time with the cuzs.. the lil one was SO cute!!! so brave noe!!! she looked down n all.. n even walked without her hands!!!! sooo cute laaa!!! omg!!!! anyway, she even rode the flume ride!!! which is a log like thing which resembles the one at escape.. n she was so brave!!! wowser!!! mmm... oh! she even wanted to try the 360 degree one, if not for her height.. man.. but the 360 degree one was the BEST!!!! went round n round n all around.. backwards, forwards... aboslutely thrilling!!! :D n somehow, all fear jus left me... all i experienced was the wind blowing inot my hair, feel it rush by me like soft down, and the intense exhilaration of feeling like u're gonna fall but not actually falling.. jus like the first roller coaster which i rode too!!! oh my.. the feeling was indescribable.. n that trip i made the most of my time dere.. rode almost all the rides worth riding.. :D deeennn.. went... SHOPPING!!!!! hee hee.. at sunway pyramid!!!! even found earrings witht the initials, BT on them!!!! is that cool or is that cool?!?!? got two of those.. hee hee.. cant rem wat else i bought.. but it was WAY cool!!! everything was sooo tempting!!! n there was an ice skating rink on the bottom level!!! like, wow!!!! din go though.. :p

the next day was filled with shoppin which, to describe, would be simply boring u guys.. wanna proclaim to the world i got new shoes though!!!! :D although couldn't get the ones i wanted, no size, yeti feet.. :S but the ones i got r alright.. in spite of there being numbers on them n all.. :S pink n black!!! :D shut up bin hong.. hmph... oh dear... talkin bout bin hong, gtg do labour wage determination.. i'm determined to finish it, and do my nails at the same time.. hmph.. tata!!!


Thursday, June 15, 2006 6/15/2006 02:48:00 AM

I've not stopped loving u.. n after tonight, even after ur admission of flaws.. i'll keep on loving u...


Wednesday, June 14, 2006 6/14/2006 09:16:00 PM

oftentimes... we make mistakes in the past.. n promise we'll never make the same ones...

oftentimes... we gain experience from history.... only to have it happen again...

oftentimes... we attempt to avoid the mistakes made in history.. only to fall into yet another pit...

oftentimes... we tell ourselves, it won't happen again... only to find ourselves hurt in the recesses of our hearts...

oftentimes.... we fail to realise... what we think, may not have been considered by the other...

oftentimes... we fall... and we get up again... but how many falls can one take, before they collapse altogether?

oftentimes... we hide beneath a cover, a facade... happiness, anger... only to be in pain within...

In life, one falters often. The strong pull through, over and over... but even they break down sometimes... I could put on a mask again.. but for how long? i could decieve myself n say i was more angry den hurt by u... but wat would that gain me?


6/14/2006 01:34:00 AM

The Raven by Edgar Allan Poe

Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered, weak and weary, Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore, While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping, As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door. "'Tis some visitor," I muttered, "tapping at my chamber door- Only this, and nothing more."

Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December, And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor. Eagerly I wished the morrow;- vainly I had sought to borrow From my books surcease of sorrow- sorrow for the lost Lenore- For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore- Nameless here for evermore.

And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain Thrilled me- filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before; So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating, "'Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door- Some late visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door;- This it is, and nothing more."

Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer, "Sir," said I, "or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore; But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping, And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door, That I scarce was sure I heard you"- here I opened wide the door;- Darkness there, and nothing more.

Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing, Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortals ever dared to dream before; But the silence was unbroken, and the stillness gave no token, And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, "Lenore!" This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, "Lenore!"- Merely this, and nothing more.

Back into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning, Soon again I heard a tapping somewhat louder than before. "Surely," said I, "surely that is something at my window lattice: Let me see, then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore- Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore;- 'Tis the wind and nothing more."

Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter, In there stepped a stately raven of the saintly days of yore; Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he; But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door- Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door- Perched, and sat, and nothing more.

Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling, By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore. "Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou," I said, "art sure no craven, Ghastly grim and ancient raven wandering from the Nightly shore- Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night's Plutonian shore!" Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly, Though its answer little meaning- little relevancy bore; For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being Ever yet was blest with seeing bird above his chamber door- Bird or beast upon the sculptured bust above his chamber door, With such name as "Nevermore."

But the raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour. Nothing further then he uttered- not a feather then he fluttered- Till I scarcely more than muttered, "other friends have flown before- On the morrow he will leave me, as my hopes have flown before." Then the bird said, "Nevermore."

Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken, "Doubtless," said I, "what it utters is its only stock and store, Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful Disaster Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore- Till the dirges of his Hope that melancholy burden bore Of 'Never- nevermore'.

" But the Raven still beguiling all my fancy into smiling, Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird, and bust and door; Then upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore- What this grim, ungainly, ghastly, gaunt and ominous bird of yore Meant in croaking "Nevermore."

This I sat engaged in guessing, but no syllable expressing To the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom's core; This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining On the cushion's velvet lining that the lamplight gloated o'er, But whose velvet violet lining with the lamplight gloating o'er, She shall press, ah, nevermore!

Then methought the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer Swung by Seraphim whose footfalls tinkled on the tufted floor. "Wretch," I cried, "thy God hath lent thee- by these angels he hath sent thee Respite- respite and nepenthe, from thy memories of Lenore! Quaff, oh quaff this kind nepenthe and forget this lost Lenore!" Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

"Prophet!" said I, "thing of evil!- prophet still, if bird or devil!- Whether Tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore, Desolate yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted- On this home by horror haunted- tell me truly, I implore- Is there- is there balm in Gilead?- tell me- tell me, I implore!" Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

"Prophet!" said I, "thing of evil- prophet still, if bird or devil! By that Heaven that bends above us- by that God we both adore- Tell this soul with sorrow laden if, within the distant Aidenn, It shall clasp a sainted maiden whom the angels name Lenore- Clasp a rare and radiant maiden whom the angels name Lenore." Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

"Be that word our sign in parting, bird or fiend," I shrieked, upstarting- "Get thee back into the tempest and the Night's Plutonian shore! Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken! Leave my loneliness unbroken!- quit the bust above my door! Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!" Quoth the Raven, "Nevermore."

And the Raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door; And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon's that is dreaming, And the lamplight o'er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor; And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor Shall be lifted- nevermore!

Nevermore....


6/14/2006 01:14:00 AM

i'm not pissed... honest, wat's there to be pissed about? the sky is BRIGHT and the grass is GREEN.. i've got diploma lessons followed by chinese lessons, a hell lotta essays to complete, mid year exams after this wonderfully LOOONG period of RELAXATION known as the 'holidays', and a thinker hu doesn't think til it's too late.. now how could life get any better???? I've fats everywhere and a lost lit book, a beautiful pimple and a practically ZERO social life... ain't that jus FAB???? i've had a hell lotta 'experiences' which have left me none the more experienced.. only coming to the same conclusions..

What more can a gal want?


Tuesday, June 13, 2006 6/13/2006 12:41:00 AM

okok.. the 'idiot's been askin me to update this for a looong time so yeah.. hope my memory serves me right cos i'm WAY tired.... shall update bout other days later... ok.. went out with the idiot to watch Omen.. does it have a 'the' in front? :s oh well, watever.. met at PS den went on down to a starbucks.. ooh.. comfy chairs..haha.. den we went to the new cathay to watch.. wow! the cinema is like, HUGE!!!! and as he put it, there was loadsa 'leg space'... but the best was yet to come! hahhaha.. there were a pair of guys in front of us.. at the beginning of the show, at a less clmatic part, one of them actually shouted! hahahhahaha.. the idiot was like laughing sooo hard!!!! the whole cinema was.. but the worst thing was, he kept on laughing!!! haiyooo... poor guy in front.. musta been reeeaall embarrassed, good thing he was right at the front n no one could see him.. the show itself was intriguing.. though the ending, jus plain sucked.. i hate bad endiings.. i wan happily ever afters!!!!! hahhaa... overal.. not too bad... 3.5 outta 5 stars... the ending ruined it all..it was SO close! grrr.. bet they wan a sequel.. chatted a whole lot den went off home after.. thanks for the show man!!! :D (now he wans silent hill, really out to give me nightmares right?!)

ok.. so far, can't seem to add more pics.. must be cos they're mostly not of me? :p my blog misses my pics.. :p hahaha... ok, ppl r prob ready to puke now.. hee hee.. anyway, had a pic of bin hong eating wasabi ice cream, which can't be uploaded, and pics of bin n i eating at komalas... which was really a very very new experience.. den there were pics for today...

today... started out crappy.. ended, alright.. :p had an IT test in the morn.. talk about ruining the start of a day! haha.. man, i had PAGES blank!!!! reflecting the state of my mind obviously!!!! sheesh.. IT is incomprehensible no matter how much u insist it's an, as shaun calls it, 'organised mess'.. not true.. it's a mess! fulstop! hee hee.. yeah anyway.. went to eat with bin n daryl after.. n off the chi lesson!!! yay! not.. slept n bin caught me when he walked in after FL meeting.. went home after to wash up n out to meet the skinny boy.. aka shaun.. :p Walked around rather aimlessly lookin into a hell of a lotta sports shops.. n some ferrari shop thing where he was absolutely thrilled! cant say the same for me though.. but man, the prices for a tiny toy car thing is exhorbitant!!!! Den walked over, or rather strided over, due to someone's incredibly long legs, to Cathay to meet "your fren'... ganged up with the other gal, apple, and bullied the guys.. hahahah.. we r kind souls.. den again, the guys, considerate ppl that they are, were so absorbed in their games n stuff, whilst we rotted.. if there's such a word.. ended up watching a christmas episode of Mickey mouse.. talk about reliving the past! refused to let the guys move us, well, ok, we were nice ppl so eventually we did.. :p played with axes at Lego and went to eat.. talkin bout eating, i'm still extremely stuffed from the dinner.. talked alot and prob couldn't stomach much food due to the reflection of my side view staring at me... i keep growing and growing.. eep!!! well, anyway.. chatted still more whilst walkin to the bus stop before we parted ways.. shaun, attempting to be gentlemanly, sent me home.. :p n the night ended.. pretty well.. :)


Sunday, June 04, 2006 6/04/2006 11:42:00 PM

Man this is fast becoming a photo blog!!! haha.. which is fina actually.. hee hee.. these r the long awaited pics from the outing cum meeting with projectwork mates suliana, andrea and jialin!!!! hahaha... went to eat at macs den started project at central lib.. havin gotten the mundane struff done, we went shopping!!! hahahhaha... they say a picture paints a thousand words so i shall illustrate usin the pics again...
this is the hottie jialin went crazy about.. haha.. they're usin him as their wallpaper i think.. :S but yeah, he's hot.. though angel n i saw a hotter one today! angel stalked him.. ahem..
Hhahahah.. this is cute!!! meant to be a dare!!! but jialin looked so cute in it she intends to buy it soon!!!!
eewww!!! this is the bad state of the toilet one has to pay 20 cents to enter.. one nice guy used his key thing for us to enter.. the wonders of beautiful gals? :p


This was how we started out... tired!!!! drained!!! but after we played in the lift! hahaha.. we were revitalised!!!! :p u should try it too!
erm... me tryin to be a moviestar?
hahhaha... there we ave.. da gals! Female4.. :p
ooh! my new crown earrings!! which i'm currently wearing.. :p
:p
went to meet grandma after.. hee hee.. she looks so cute in this pic!!! was tryin out some weird housefly lookin glasses!!! hahahahah...

that was about it.. diploma starts tmw.. groans... IT.. yucks.. sigh... *drags self away from com*


6/04/2006 01:38:00 AM

Day 5
And thus i bring to u.. the MI pre u semmers!!!!
This was mummy SLO Siti!!!! love her loads!
Mr Tharman at the tea session!
us three... hee hee.. pals at pre u sem.. em looks so cute!!!!
Pre u sem group 20!!!!! haiyo.. jun wei, wat kinda pose is that?!!?!
haha.. one of the rayner teos in my group n the three of us again!
The babes in d group (kiddin)
Other SOL Jin Wen (i think).. hee hee..
Me n jun wei n perk lun!!! haha... rose among the thorns? :p
Me n Em again!!!! love her to bits!!!!

overall.. not baddd.. :D love most of the ppl.. n never thought i could get to noe someone as sweet as em.. meet up to play 'power-up' sometime soon guys!!! :D


6/04/2006 12:21:00 AM

Day 3
as can be seen.. it was highly entertaining... again.. :D Emm here illustrates the point..
Millennians unite once more to get GFC t shirts! n i finally got a right size...
ermm... bridget hasn't changed!
In the bus to a seminar.. whee!!!
Perk Lun(NJC) n i!!!! was once more bored to tears due to extremely disoragnised hence plenty of time wasted planning..

Day 4
The next day... at BREAKFAST... this too!
Would u believe 3?!?!
N this is the HUMONGOUS monitor lizard we saw!!!! gosh!!!! it's not very obvious in the pic but.. :S it's big!!!

n i'll have to do the uploadin on another post.. again... :s


Saturday, June 03, 2006 6/03/2006 11:09:00 PM

Back!!! had a fun fun fun time with drea, jia lin and su!!!!! haha... we went shoppin after.. i took more pics.. but shall put them up after the pre u sem ones... :p here is DAY 2
this is my pal at pre u sem!!! Emmalyn from NYJC!!! :D so cute!!!!! :p
we were bored at the seminar.. n u noe me, bored, wat's the solution? take pics!!!! Jun Wei from SRJC n Emmalyn again!!!! me sandwiched between.. i think i gained weight!
The talks durin the seminar was, as seen, very entertaining...
Rucha (RJC) and i!
Me and Em waitin for yet another borin talk!!!! :D

N yet again i cant upload more pics.. shall jus do it on another post.. hmph..


6/03/2006 08:52:00 AM

WHOOO!!!! BRIDGET'S BACK, BACK AGAIN.. hahaha... jus woke up a while back from a revitalisingly looooong sleep!!!! haha... intended on stayin up to go online n meet those hu i haven't contacted durin my time in pre u sem, or even those hu've contacted me too! hha.. but my eyes couldn't stay open.. slept at 6 plus, wanted to wake up at 8, but woke up at 3 instead.. :s hhahaha.. ok... on to the fun part... wat happened at pre u sem? i'll try n recall... or better yet, i'll do it usiiinn..... PICTURES!!!!!!!!!! :D
cant seem to upload more pics so.. here's
DAY 1
Whilst waiting for the ppl so sort us out, here's ig n dib actin like a coupla gays.. as usual... :p i went through worse in the bus!! trust me.. this wasn't all that bad.. :p

And there's Daryl n i... still waitin for them to sort us out... the things ppl do when they're bored.. :p

here we have the first night at NUS!!!! me n bin.. he's actin!!!! idiot..

oooh... here we have the delightful strawberry milkshake.. yummm!!! had that and a burger with fries.. compared to the food we were served, it was heavenly!!!! and affordable too!!! surprisingly.. n on top of that the servings were ginormous!!!!!

n den we have.. the ig n i.. again.. hahhaa... he had a huge sandwich! of cos, it ain't that easy to maintain that figure eh peeps? :p

Thus we ended our night... in relaxation and chatter.. bout evrythin under the sun.. day two comin up.. later on! :p now i'm supposed to meet my darling pw peeps for projectwork.. i pray i dun doze off.. n still feelin groggy.. :S